Ruki Kenishiro

Herro.. first thing first, please reserve your judgement until you've finished reading this post. Only after you're finished reading this, you can judge me. So here's how the story goes. Today, 15 of July, i am on leave (Tomorrow too) because i am sitting for my Open University May's final exam. Well the thing is, i haven't study one bit! What?! Yup seriously, i haven't study a thing. This morning i woke up at 9am, just laid on my bed for an hour before getting up for shower. i was planning the night before to get up early and study but obviously i didn't. Instead, i fired up my laptop and watch videos on Mega Video. Gosh?! Yeah, i know... i think i'm gonna flunk this paper. When will i ever learn? Stupid! Stupid Stupid! i think i better look again at my priorities. Whether to be successful or just another ordinary-going-nowhere guy. Wake up dude!

Fuckingly Tired, Sad, Bored and Lonely Week

i'm just so bored and lonely, haven't been blogging because nothing interesting happened. Life is fuckingly bored and pointless as usual so nothing much there. i've been waking up, working my ass off, eat and little if not no exercise and then back to sleep again. My life is in a such a boring time right now, i miss her a lot but i highly doubt that she feels the same. My week days is just working, eating and sleeping routine. i'm such an ordinary guy. Nothing special there. Although i have to be grateful that i am working, meaning at least i have a job, but i don't know, it seems that i might have been having some kind of low self esteem state/phase. i'm not feeling grateful for what i've had right now. My job is not exactly physically demanding, but more towards brain/head/mind demanding. Nevertheless when i'm finished working and got back home, i'm usually dead tired. i realised that when your head is tired, your body would feel tired as well, but...

Can't Let Go Of Her..

Let me see, why am i so into her ? What's so special about her that change the way how i felt about her.. i think i should look at this throughly. In order for me to get over her quickly, i'll list out about what i like about her and perhaps look for that similarities in other girls that i might meet later. Though i don't think this is a good move, because i'm afraid by doing this, i might fall into her ever deeper. Which is what i'm trying to avoid. As when that happened, i would just be trapped in a destructive circle of unrequitted love. 1. i love the way she smiles, the way her eyes would become small, cute and shiny. 2. i love the way she giggles when she makes her jokes. 3. i love the way she makes that cute face when she's making fun of me/teasing me/play jokes on me. 4. i love the way she wrinkles her eye brows and the puzzled look on her face when she didn't get my jokes. 5. i love the way she tied her hair, i always wanted to tell her that whe...

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